My last post was written in the beginning of 2013. I am now writing towards the middle of the year to update on the progress that I've had and not had. Eating healthier is definitely hard. I've been able to cut out some things like most processed food, but going back every so often. I've completely cut out soda many years ago, but occasionally have one every now and then. Portioning is still a part of my life, but I'm not as strict with it in terms of using measuring cups, but I generally know what each portion looks like now. I've been in a bad streak of eating out. I generally save half of what I eat, but sometimes I don't and go over board. This has been hard for me to stop doing due to my busy lifestyle. I forgot to thaw meat out for dinner or we have stuff at home, but not to my liking, so I say "screw it" and eat out because those options are more pleasing to my stomach. It's a struggle for me to be hard on myself. It's also been a huge struggle to workout or stay motivated to do so. I will go through weeks where I don't workout, not even a little bit. Then I'll have one great week where I workout 4 times and they will be awesome workouts and I'll be SO motivated to keep going, but I don't. Life gets in the way. I find that statement to be 100% why I choose not to workout most of the time. I have been keeping up with my monthly chart, though! It used to be that I'd put rest for days I did not workout, so I wouldn't feel so guilty not doing anything, but I'd stretch. Now I just put big X's when I do nothing and I don't even stretch. I've gained over 30 pounds since high school and I know it's not healthy and I need to lose that weight, but by golly it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. I've even bought this band that I wear around my wrist that tells me my sleeping patterns and how many steps I get in a day by tracking my movements. You can log your food as well, but I chose not to use that option. It has been a great little tool to help me, but even when I don't get my goal of 10,000 steps a day it doesn't phase me. It makes me a little sad, but not to the point of pushing me to get more the next day to make up for the lack of steps the day before. I've even got a calendar on my wall where I track my boyfriend and I's steps to see who can get more and that only lasted a week. I think I have issues with sticking to something. Keeping commitments. God, help me find the strength to push through and the motivation to keep pushing.